Wednesday, July 20, 2011

JUST One of those days...

Ok so I've been contemplating over this post for the past few days...weeks actually. I just couldn't find a good way to write it without coming out and just saying it like it is...without it looking like another one of those "feel sorry for me posts" BUT I can't help it... so here it is and you'd BETTER FEEL SORRY FOR ME.

Lately I've been feeling neglected. By everyone. I looked up the definiton of neglect: Not pay proper attention to; disregard. And disregarded describes exactly how I feel. Throughout the years you go through different experiences and you find out who really cares and who doesn't. It's good to have those true friends and family, but you look back at some of the people you spent so much time with or someone you got along so well with and then in the end you aren't really friends anymore. And what was all of that time and effort for? Nothing.

I've been trying to set things right or forgive and forget and so far it's just backfired. Somethings just go on for so long that you don't even know where it all started and I can't seem to figure out how to fix it. I'm beginning to realize that I'm wasting my time and I should give up. Those people that I may have WRONGED have just disregarded me. I'm being ignored.

I'm so excited about this weekend. Now that I'm "From Magrath" I feel so excited for Magrath Days and seeing all of the family. It's been a while since I've seen a lot of Cody's Aunts/Uncles/Cousins but it'll be good to spend time with some family. I'm hoping that the hype of it all will turn my summer around and I can just forget about all those worries that I've been thinking about.

Anyways, Since I got invited to everyone else has...I've been wasting a lot of time on it. I guess I'll just make a new board and post things that I like in it....that should make me feel better!

Ok now that it's all off my mind and out here on the web...I promise to make a more positive post next, for all those "readers" out there HAH!


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